

I don't want my son doing that to me and I think it is sad that we were so close as a family and because of one person it breaks up the whole family. His wife has him so controlled that he never visits my mom so I haven't seen my brother in 2 years. My brother who I was so close to as a kid and he was so close to my mom ends up marrying a woman who is so mean. My husband is kinda sad too he always ask me "Why does are children grow up so fast?" I just cry about it and no ones sees me crying. I don't want to end up like that I just want to be happy for them and proud whatever they do. How can I just be proud of them for just growing up instead of crying for growing up? My friends have kids who are going off to college this year and they are very sad. My kids are sweet right now and so funny. I just hope my kids don't turn out to be like that. I have a teenager step son who lives with us now and he has changed so much I don't even recognize him anymore. I'll I was saying is that I like them young. Because unless it happens, and let me remind you that it's years in the future yet, you've really messed up as a parent. And if you have done a great job as a Mom, that's exactly what will happen. I think you know your kids are not going to actually forget you so it feels like you are saying you fear they will develop their own life with friends and lovers that will not always include you. While it will probably play out just fine, it's not within your control. But that's in the future and not a certainty. More likely than not, they will still make you laugh. More likely than not, you will still enjoy the people they grow up to be. But they are growing up in spite of your wanting them to. You teach them everything they learn, you take them everywhere they need to go. Do they know you cry each morning over their growing up? I hope you mean that this is a private time for you. I know you are asking for empathy but my main concern is for your children. Is there anyone out there that feels this way. I dont' believe in medication but I have tried it and it doesn't agree with me. I have been meditating, exercising, eating right, and I go to acupuncture.

So when I wake in the morning I get real anxiety ridden with these thoughts. I am busy all day but I wonder what it will be like when they grow up and leave the house - I keep thinking I will be bored and miserable. Why does this bother me so much? I have a life too - I have hobbies, I exercise, I have me time. I will miss that because I know when they get into teen age years they will change and become different people. I love being able to teach them for school. They make me laugh and I love taking them every where they need to go. I am just so afraid they will forget me when they grow up. My husband is fun too but my kids just light up my life. I have so much fun with them and I just can't imagine getting older and being without them. I love them at the age they are right now. I cry in the morning about my kids growing up too fast. I homeschool my two kids who are 6 years old and 9 years old. I am so many anxieties and my anxiety gets worse around my menstrual period.
